Life as a new Mum with my Rainbow baby.


I feel like I should have posted this a while ago now… but I guess motherhood has just taken over and I’ve just been enjoyed every moment with Gabriel… so here goes..

Well it feels like it took a lifetime to finally hold my baby is my arms and take him home.. but I feel like this was my journey and without this journey we would have never got this beautiful gift.. my baby Gabriel.

From going through the worst thing I have ever gone through and having the worst year of my life (after baby Sebastian being stillborn)… being so down and probably depressed (even though I try not to use that word) to 3 months later finding out I was pregnant again, being filled with worry and not being able to relax until this new baby had arrived.

Gabriel came 4 weeks early and I’m sure it was because our little angel Sebastian didn’t want me to worry any more so he gave him to us as soon as he was fully developed and ready for the big wide world at 36 weeks.

I can’t even begin to explain what it is like having a baby after a stillbirth… but all I can say is it is WONDERFUL! I know for sure this little baby is going to be so so spoilt by everyone around us… especially me and Ainslee, we already fuss over him so so much – Way more than we should and I think we appreciate him that little bit more than families who don’t have any complications. I guess it’s just the way the world goes round but we are so thankful to finally have him here.

I feel like motherhood has come really naturally to me and I am enjoying each and every moment, every milestone that he makes I also get a bit sad because he may have outgrown his tiny coat or he is going up to that next toy and no longer is he wanting to be clung to me 24/7 but each milestone amazes me but I just wish time would slow down. Its safe to say I have a super clingy baby, and I think if it was anyone else they would be wishing he wouldn’t be so clingy, or would settle on their own by now… but I think because we went through what we went through I love that he needs me for absolutely everything and I’m so lucky that I can spend all of my time with him ❤

We are currently breastfeeding and I am planning on doing this for as long as possible as I truly believe it is the best thing for my baby… I was a little shocked if I’m honest at how few people I have met that actually breastfeed… and I don’t mean if they have given breastfeeding a try and it hasn’t worked for them, I mean the people who choose from day 1 to formula feed. Is it because they’re embarrassed to feed in public or because they want to be able to share the feeding experience with friends and family? I want to also create some kind of awareness to how its okay to feed in public and not to be embarrassed because it is the most natural thing for you and your baby and also the best thing.

The classes we have tried so far are baby sensory and baby massage, we also love to get outdoors everyday and try as many new experiences as possible.. whether that be listening to music at home, having bath times together or trying a new class, I want Gabriel to try as many things as possible. We have him signed up for Rhythm Time to start at the end of February and we’ve been invited to try Tumble Tots once he’s 6 months old.

In terms of my weight loss postpartum I have lost almost 3 stone now since giving birth as I had put on a total of 5 stone through my 2 pregnancies… Walking every day, doing my core exercises each evening when Ainslee can hold him and eating a healthy balanced diet has worked really well for me so far… I have only recently started to up my exercise and go for a few runs each week so I’m hoping that by Summer time I will be back to my pre pregnancy weight… fingers crossed, from being super fit pre pregnancy to how I am has taken a lot of getting used to and I would really like to be much fitter as I want Gabriel to have someone to look up to and when he’s bigger we’ll be able to do lots of fitness type things as a family… so my goal this year is to try and make as much time for my fitness as possible and make it the next priority after Gabriel of course.

I hope this has given you an insight into how motherhood is going for me so far… Id love to hear your experiences or if anyone has any advice or just needs a fellow mum to chat to! I’ll be writing blog post each week from now and hope you enjoy following my journey!



Lots of love


Maria and Gabriel x

My Third Trimester

I am now into week 35 of my pregnancy and I realised the other day that I hadn’t posted an update for almost 10 weeks… I couldn’t believe how fast that time had gone and also that I am almost at the very end of this pregnancy. A lot has happened in the third trimester… from decorating our nursery, our angel babies 1st birthday, my baby shower and also the general aches and pains that the third trimester brings, so I wanted to update you all.

How I have been feeling:

So its safe to say this trimester has been a crazy rollercoaster of emotions for me, once I got over the 26 week mark (where we had a previous still born) I felt like everything was going really well and I felt so well in myself compared to my previous pregnancy – I felt like this pregnancy was going as planned and the worrying from earlier on in the pregnancy had started to settle. Then as we got closer to our angel babies first birthday I was feeling very emotional, guilty and sad that I was having another baby and didn’t want Sebastian to think we had forgotten him… On his birthday it was actually the memorial service for all of the Angel Babies at the church where he was cremated so this made it especially sad for us and seeing a church full of parents (literally hundreds) who had also lost their babies really hit me hard and I know my pregnancy hormones wouldn’t have helped but it was a really hard week that week. The following week after Sebastian birthday was my baby shower… so I felt like I had to quickly snap into a different mind frame to be happy and positive and excited about this new baby… but every since Sebastians birthday I have just been filled with doubt that something is still going to happen to this baby again. Luckily the fact that I get to go to St Mary’s Rainbow Clinic every 2 weeks for a scan has helped me to be assured that this baby is doing really well and is now a whopping 6lbs already, but still I have so many concerns and worries going through my head every day.

I am also struggling with severe SPD which is agony on my pubic bone… so walking and climbing stairs is now very painful for me (I think it is so bad because I have been scared to exercise during this pregnancy, as last time I was still very active).. so I am literally counting down the days until baby arrives now so that I can start to feel a bit more normal again… I have also been blessed with major water retention haha! So my face, hands, legs and feet now feel double the size (the joys that pregnancy brings!) I think I feel more down about all of these things is because I still have doubt in my mind that something is going to wrong in this pregnancy… People keep saying to me it will all be worth it in the end (I won’t believe them until baby is actually here in my arms).

Now for something a little more positive..

Birth Plan:

I have been advised by my consultant at St Mary’s that I should have a c section – This is because Sebastian had a very bad brain haemorrhage whilst inside of me, I have since been tested for everything and nothing has come back but there is still a slight chance that it could happen again… So to avoid babies head having any unnecessary pressure they have said that a C section will be the best option. At first I was a little worried about this but all I want is for this baby to get here as safely as possible and also I have already gone through natural labour with Sebastian so I won’t feel like I’m missing out or upset that I haven’t been able to experience natural labour…This time its all about this baby!


Our Nursery is pretty much complete now apart from a few finishing touch.. we have gone for a really neutral design with hints of blue… All the walls are grey and then our furniture is white with lots of cosy blankets and furry rugs. Then we have pale blue photo frames, details and teddies in there to make it more personal. We almost have everything ready now and I have washed all of babies clothes and they are all hung up to dry so that I can get the hospital bag ready so that I feel prepared just incase we need to go in a little earlier than expected.

Baby Shower:

I had the most beautiful baby shower at Piccolino in Alderley Edge and I invited everyone I wanted to see before baby came. It was so nice to have everyone there because I have felt like I have been hibernating a little bit during this pregnancy and then I know I’ve seen everyone now and can plan lots of lovely things for when baby is here and I am able to get out and about again after my c sections (because you can’t drive for 6 weeks after) so I’m looking forward to seeing friends after Christmas.

Postnatal Exercise:

Im soooo looking forward to exercising again post pregnancy… I can’t wait to get out walking with the pram and I also have a baby carrier so that I can get out and be hands-free. I think for the first 6 weeks I will be trying to do as much walking as possible and then after the 6 weeks I will be getting my boyfriend to put together a training programme for me to help me regain my core and get stronger again… before finally going out running (which I can’t wait to do) once I am fully recovered… Because I need to loose a lot of weight!!!

We are also planning on doing some outdoor fitness classes for mum and babies as I know a lot of you are around the similar stage of pregnancy as me so it would be great to meet lots of you and get rid of our baby weight together!

I hope you’ve enjoyed my update and if any of you have any advice you would like to give or any baby essentials you couldn’t live without then I would love to know… Also if you want to ask me any questions, ask away!!!



Pregnancy update at 26 weeks 5 days

Even though I feel like I have been pregnant for a life time now.. when I look back it only seems like yesterday that I hit the half way mark at 20 weeks. I now feel like my body is filling up with fluid and everyday I just feel bigger ad bigger even though I don’t feel like this is physically possible!!

Lets start with the bad stuff… so now that I am past the point where we lost Sebastian I’m finding it hard to set myself milestones… before it would be 12 weeks, 15 weeks, 18 weeks, 20 weeks and then finally when we lost Sebastian so now I just think every week that goes by is a week further than last time…. I still can’t quite image myself getting to the end and keep thinking to myself that something is going to go wrong. But on a positive note I feel completely different to how I felt last time and definitely think that my body is doing what it should this time… so fingers crossed I guess.

We are still having scans at the rainbow clinic at St Mary’s in Manchester every 2 weeks which really helps with my mental health. I always look forward to seeing our little baby on the screen because there’s still a small part of my mind that believes this is all we will get to know/ see of him and I make sure I take every moment in of seeing him on that screen. At each scan so far we have been told that he looks really healthy and we are due to have him a week before my due date by c-section which is the safest way to bring him into the world after Sebastian had a severe brain haemorrhage and we want to avoid that from happening again at all costs… even though I would love to give birth to him naturally! (We are still having tests to find out how we lost Sebastian)

I have only gained 9lbs so far throughout this pregnancy but that still means I’m 3 stone heavier than I was before I got pregnant with Sebastian so i’m feeling pretty big and out of shape right now and can’t wait to start exercise again… Anyway that’s enough of me moaning! I’m so excited to meet this little one and can’t wait to have my arms finally filled with a little baby, its been such a long time coming and myself and Ainslee can’t wait to be a Mummy and Daddy.

We have only just started getting a few bits for this baby because we still have everything from last time so there’s not that much we need now, I’ve picked a theme for our nursery and can’t wait to get started with that in the next few weeks.

I will show you all what it looks like when its all finished! Anyway for now let me know if you want to know anything and also if you have any advice for getting through the third trimester… because I’ve heard its the toughest!

Thanks for reading

Lots of love

Maria x

Mama Mio Skincare

I really feel like my skin has been through a tough time lately, yo-yoing after being pregnant twice in 1 year. So far I’ve been very lucky and haven’t got any stretch marks on my tummy… I have just had a couple on the very tops on my legs which I got at the very beginning of this pregnancy. I struggled with very sore hips early on during this pregnancy so I think those little stretch marks were from my hips widening again.

Ever since around week 10 I have been using creams and oils to make sure my skin is as subtle as possible and to prevent any more marks appearing… Early on in pregnancy I struggled with morning sickness so a lot of creams would have a scent and would make me feel queasy, this meant the only thing I could really use was Bio Oil due to it being scent free and as you all probably know it’s a great product for prevent and helping with the appearance of stretch marks.

I was just getting to the bottom of my second bottle when Mama Mio contacted me and asked if they could send me a parcel of their products to review and it couldn’t of arrived at a better time! I have now being using these products for a couple of weeks and not only do they smell delicious (ginger & lime scented to help ease morning sickness) but my skin is feeling the softest it has ever felt! I literally slather on The Tummy Rub Butter all over my belly and hips morning and night and use the Pregnancy Boob Tube all over my boobs morning and night too!

I also spritz the Liquid Yoga all over my pillow and bed sheets each night to help me fall asleep super fast and I get Ainslee to massage my feet and ankles with the cooling Lucky Legs gel after I’ve been on my feet all day!

During pregnancy there are so many treatments you can’t have done at the beauty salon so because all these products are super safe to use whilst pregnant you can pamper yourself at home every day instead…. because surely when we’re creating a human we need all the pampering we can get right?!

I 100% think that these Mama Mio products are the best on the market for during pregnancy.. they are a little more expensive than other creams but they are definitely worth every penny! You can purchase these in John Lewis or online at they have all sorts of packages and bundles or you can just buy the products individually. Let me know what you think of these products!

Lots of love x

Lily Flo Jewellery

As you can probably all see from my photos on social media I do love jewellery and like to wear jewellery that is comfy to wear everyday and I don’t really ever take my favourite pieces off. So when LilyFlo Jewellery asked if she could send me some pieces from her Minimalism and Flora Collection I could see that her jewellery looked like it was really great quality and very simple looking…. just like my style!

If you check out @lilyflojewellery on Instagram you will see that all of their pieces are handmade to perfection which I really LOVE!

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In the workshop


The earrings that I have been sent are perfect for wearing everyday and super comfy and don’t feel like they will ever fall out (especially with a little baby on the way) The Minimalism collection is very my style, simple sterling silver pieces that look great dressed up or down and make everyone look at them because of their cool abstract shapes and designs… Then the Flora collection is very girly and pretty which is also what I love.. these earrings are in the shape of little butterflies with a beautiful pink pearl in the centre.. These are not yet available to purchase on their website, so keep your eye out for them.. but in the meantime they have so much more to choose from on their website.

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My Perfect Skin Ritual Whilst Pregnant

We all know that pregnancy comes with it’s rage of crazy hormones and I think skin is always put through the test during the 10 months of pregnancy (yes we are actually pregnant for 10 months and not 9!). For me one of my first pregnancy symptoms was SPOTS!! And I don’t mean the odd pimple or a couple…. they came in full force under my neck and around my chin area, they were horrible and lingered for around the first 15 weeks. So I thought to myself ‘I really need to step up my game with my skin regime.’ I was already using some really good products from my favourite brand Kiehls but I felt like I had to do something more… otherwise my fear was having scars on my face from the spots.

I was already using:

Kiehls Ultra Facial Cleanser

Kiehls Ultra Facial Toner


Kiehls Ultra Facial Moisturiser

But my skin just wasn’t improving… so I stepped it up and headed to the Kiehls store and spoke to one of the ladies who worked there and she advised me to get a really good exfoliator so I got the ‘Epidermal Re-texturising Micro- dermabrasion Exfoliator’ from the special dermatologist section in Kiehls which really helped smooth out my skin, a few weeks later I was invited to a bloggers event at Kiehls on King Street in Manchester and they gave me a Pure Vitality Moisturiser and also another Ultra Facial Cleanser… So I made sure I was using all of these products morning and night and exfoliating 3 times a week.

My mum then told me about the Turmeric and Cranberry Seed face mask that she had purchased and how it made her skin feel like a ‘Babies Bottom’ so she put some into a pot for me to try and OMG!!! This was the mask that made my skin TRANSFORM.. I used this mask twice in 1 week and within 2 weeks my skin was glowing and my spots had literally vanished! Im not sure if it was because my hormones had started to settle down or if it was because of this face mask so I didn’t use it for a week and my skin started to break out again (not as bad as before though) So last week I went back to another Kiehls Blogger Event and in my goody box was a full size tub of the Turmeric and Cranberry Seed face mask… I couldn’t believe that out of all the products in the store that was the one I was given! So lets just say ever since my skin has been incredible.


I also give my skin a little treat once a week and use the Midnight Recovery Concentrate, you can use this every night if you wish but I feel my skin only needs it now and again and it also smells incredible so you are sure to have a really good night sleep whenever you use it.


I can’t recommend Kiehls products enough and their service is so much better than any other brand I have ever come across. If you pop into any store and ask for a ‘skin consultation’ they will sit down with you free of charge and tell you what skin type you have and which products you need to be using and how to help any concerns that you may have.

They are also very generous and give you plenty of samples with each purchase, especially if you are wanting to ‘try-before-you-buy’, just let them know what you are thinking of buying next time and they will give you plenty of samples if they have them in stock… but they always have plenty of products to try if they don’t have a specific one!

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Also if you live in the Manchester area you can pop into Kiehls King Street before the end of August and donate a minimum of £3 to the #KiehlsxMTV Staying Alive Foundation and you will get this bag packed full of samples when you quote ‘Cheshire Gossip Girl’ to a member of staff – Ask in store for more details!

Pick up your FREE Kiehls products from KIEHLS, KING STREET, MANCHESTER.

I am so excited to share with you all that I am now an official Kiehls representative for the Kiehls x MTV Staying Alive Foundation charity which Leona Lewis is the new Ambassador for in aid of AIDS in less affluent countries. Aids is such a horrific disease and I think we should all do as much as we can for these people who are effected all over the world…

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SO… I would like to give you all this amazing gift for FREE! All you after to do is donate a minimum of £3 to this charity and you can pick up your goodies in store.

TEXT KIEH99 £3 to 70070 (or donate more if you wish) and SHOW YOUR TEXT and QUOTE ‘CHESHIREGOSSIPGIRL’ to a member of staff at the Kiehls King Street store in Manchester City Centre and they will give you one of these amazing packs full of goodies!

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Kiehls have also launched this Avocado Creamy Eye Treatment (I’m saving mine for when baby arrives and I need some extra eye treatment) and for every pot you buy £10 will go to the Staying Alive Foundation. If you know how good the brand KIEHLS are you will know that this is amazing value for money and also that you are helping out such a great charity.

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I will be telling you all soon how I keep my skin in tip top condition throughout pregnancy and which products keep my skin super clear and glowy whilst my body is full of all the crazy hormones that pregnancy brings, Kiehls is Paraben Free and all natural so perfect to use whilst pregnant.

Thanks for reading dolls x


Celebrating Bee Sting Clothing

The lovely Abbie from Bee Sting Clothing has been kind enough to send me some of her products to make me feel really comfy during my pregnancy. These clothes are not maternity clothes but I’ve found that if I wear a couple of sizes bigger than my normal size things normally fit me more comfortably at the minute.

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This brands products are super comfy and such good quality, I actually want all the t-shirts in every colour!! The brand is all about body confidence, so whether you have small, medium or large boobies… we as women should embrace everything that we are given, so if you’re model slim or gorgeous and curvy Bee Stings items will fit you and you will feel great!

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“Designer Abbie Dixon, 25, is the creative mind behind the independent Manchester based fashion label Bee Sting. Inspired by her horse Makalu’s shoes, Abbie started the brand from her bedroom on the family farm, where she grew up.

The Bee Sting brand is about body positivity. Whether you carry a pair of Bee Stings or Big B’s, the Bee Sting brand is here to celebrate women and hopefully crack a smile.”

Yes, the horseshoes look like boobs…


Check them out on Instagram – @bee_sting_clothing

Gender Reveal

I want to share with you all as much of my pregnancy as possible.. so basically we have been dying to find out if we are having a boy or a girl for such a long time. In my previous pregnancy I had a stillbirth and we lost our baby Sebastian so for me finding out in this pregnancy was so important because I felt that if I was going to be having a girl this time I would really have to get my head around it, whereas if we were going to have a boy I felt that it would help my grieving process slightly and we have everything in our house for a baby boy already… Not that we would ever prefer one instead of the other as all I want is a healthy baby after what happened to Sebastian. But basically we are over the moon that we have finally found out the sex and that our rainbow baby is a little boy!! ❤

We have had so many scans so far and the midwives at the hospital scanning me haven’t wanted to tell me the gender as they said most mums have to wait until 20 weeks, which is fair enough but yesterday we had our scan with Fetal Medicine (FMU) at St Mary’s in Manchester (where they do a really detailed scan of the brain, heart, limbs, fluid and placenta) and they gave us a 45 minute scan and I have to say I officially fell in love with our baby at this scan. We got to watch him on the screen for all that time, we got to see his face, lips, nose and eyes really close up and we got to see his hands and little feet. It was absolutely magical, watching him snuggle his face into my placenta, already trying to cuddle me was the best thing in the world. It’s safe to say we both got a little teary and had beaming smiles all day after the scan!

So I am now 21 weeks and definitely think that finding out the gender really makes the pregnancy feel real and like there is a real life little person growing inside of you. I just can’t wait to meet him now and hope everything goes smoothly ❤

Pregnancy so far..

Okay so as you all may know by now… I’M PREGNANT! It’s been a tough journey so far to get to where I am and it’s certainly not been easy but to say I am 19 weeks and its only a week until we are half way makes me feel all sort of emotions…

My last pregnancy ended at 26 weeks so as we are approaching this similar time I am definitely getting more and more anxious… I’d say for the first 12 weeks I thought to myself ‘If it ends, it ends’ as I didn’t want to get my hopes up or get too attached incase I had an early miscarriage. But now as time is going on it’s getting harder to not feel something for this little one inside of me as much as I am trying not to get to attached and I’m not sure how I would cope if we lost another baby.

I have to say though it has certainly not been an easy ride for me so far, I’ve been in hospital because I have been bleeding a couple of times and also because I had a lot of pressure down below and then this week I also thought my plug had gone, I was reassured each time though and was told you can bleed because of all the extra blood your body needs whilst pregnant and also people can have some of their cervix come away during pregnancy but I had lots of scans and tests and everything is fine right now. This hasn’t made me feel to great, seem as I’m a nervous wreck anyway@

So we get to find out on the 12th July if we are having a boy or girl.. we had a scan at 17 weeks and were told that the cord was between the babies legs so couldn’t find out…. In a way I am anxious to find out if its a boy or girl… I feel like if it’s a girl me and Ainslee will have to get our heads around the fact that we are no longer having a boy, (if you didn’t  know we lost our baby boy Sebastian in October) Its hard to explain to family and friends as we will be delighted with any gender its just another part of the grieving process, I think that no one else could explain unless you have gone through a stillbirth or loss.

Overall I can’t wait for the pregnancy to be over and actually have a baby with us to enjoy and love, I was pregnant in April 2016 – October 2016 and then got pregnant again in February, so I literally feel like I have been pregnant for over a year now and am looking forward to getting my body back and feeling like Maria again. Saying that though I keep saying to myself that I need to enjoy this pregnancy incase we don’t get to have a baby at the end again… I want to enjoy all the little movements that I am now feeling and want to do things with Ainslee to get us ready for whats to come.

As you all probably understand  its a massive whirlwind of emotions and feelings but I’m so thankful that we are almost half way and it has definitely gone a lot quicker than last time. Its all about getting through the next half and bring on November!!!

I’m going to do a maternity clothing blog soon and lots more pregnancy type blogs so make sure you stay tuned!