Depression

Ok, so.. after Sebastian was born, we were allowed to spend the day with him… baring in mind I was so drugged up and I had to be taken into theatre to have an epidural to get the placenta out. Once I got back from theatre at 7pm that evening Sebastian was taken away.. It still hadn’t hit me what had actually happened over the past 24 hours. For Ainslee he had to watch it all and probably absorbed what was going on a little better than me. After another night in the hospital we were able to go home… I was still feeling a little dizzy and light headed from the painkillers and Ainslee had to shower and dress me that morning because my legs still felt a bit numb from the epidural.

So we went home and as I opened the door my mum gave me a parcel… It was all of the paper work to finalise our mortgage and confirmation that we were about to exchange contracts for our new house. We had been so stressed about all of this throughout my pregnancy that we felt like our little angel had somehow done something to let us finally have the house of our dreams and be together.

With this in mind I wanted to go furniture shopping…. so Ainslee took me and we bought so much stuff and ordered our sofa, bed, tables, chairs… candles.. you name it we had ordered it all. Everything was ready to arrive on our moving in date, which had been confirmed.

I was focusing all my attention on our new house and making sure it was perfect because I wasn’t having anyone ruin this for us. Once we moved in it felt like our little safe heaven because our house is in the country side away from everyone, we were so happy that we could eventually be together and not really have to make much effort with anyone else. It’s safe to say looking back now that this was when the depression started to kick in.

We had Sebastians funeral coming up and I wanted to see him one last time because I felt like whilst I was drugged up in hospital I didn’t really get to give him a final cuddle. So we went along to the mortuary and we went in a room to see him. He looked nothing like what I remembered… He looked like all of the goodness I gave him had gone and it was heart breaking. I felt like he wasn’t been looked after… it was devastating. It soon came round to the funeral and we decided me and Ainslee would just be attending. We wanted it to just be us so that we could cry and so that we could have it as low key as possible.

After the funeral weeks went by where I would be working all day and late into the night.. I was putting every little bit of my energy and thoughts into work. It wasn’t until Christmas and probably the whole of January were I was a complete mess. Why were people saying Happy Christmas to me? Why should I be celebrating? OUR BABY HAS JUST DIED!! It was so frustrating and I just wanted it to be January so badly so that we could start a fresh New Year. Obviously this is much easier said than done.. MY DUE DATE was the 24th January and all of the girls that I was pregnant with now had there babies….. It was hard and we were having to go for tests at the hospital because Sebastian had a brain haemorrhage whilst inside of me and they were trying to find out why, these tests seemed to take forever which really made everything drag out a lot more than I felt it should.

All of our tests came back negative and we still don’t know to this day why it happened. This whole time I haven’t had any calls from the doctors or the hospital checking up on me to see how my mental state is. I would like to think I am quite a positive person and even for me I have had some pretty dark times. So I don’t know how other people get on (say if they have previously been diagnosed with depression etc)

If I had given birth to a heathy baby I would of been checked for postnatal depression, which they take really seriously… so why not check up on someone who will 100% have post natal depression after having a still born. It shocks me…. even to the point of going to the dentist… When you’re pregnant you get 9 months free dental care whilst pregnant and 6 months free after your pregnancy. So when I went to the dentist last week the receptionist says after my 5 minute check up… “That’ll be £40 please” So I say “Im exempt from paying because I was pregnant” So she asks me if I’m currently pregnant or have a baby… So I say “I had a still birth” this obviously makes me cry… so Im stood crying in the middle of a waiting room.. and she says “Sorry the NHS don’t give exemption if your pregnant was terminated, don’t worry you’ll start to feel better soon. £40 please.” I was absolutely shocked by her response and if I was in my normal state I wouldn’t of payed and kicked up a BIG fuss… but because I was so shocked by her reaction I just payed and got out of there as quickly as possible.

Baring in mind I had been going to that dentist since I was 2 years old.. and it being a private clinic where I know they could of had a little sympathy and understanding… but no!!! Its like people just don’t understand it as being so horrific and life destroying. It is by far in my experience the worst thing to happen to a couple.

So looking on to the future I don’t think I will seriously feel happy in myself until I get pregnant again… I think when you loose a baby, whether that baby was planned or not. You prepare yourself for that little person to come into your life… so when that doesn’t happen you feel empty and like there is a little hole in your life that you need filling. Hopefully it won’t be too long until we get that hole filled…

Favourite products this month so far..

This month I have been so lucky in receiving some amazing products and of course I have tried and tested all of these products and have my absolute favourites of course. Along with all the amazing Kiehls products that I received.. I feel like I need a bit more time with those, so that I can get a real feel for which are my favourites and how Im getting on with them etc.

So lets start with OLAPLEX… I have been looking for a long time now, for that hair product that really makes me go ‘WOW’ I am growing my hair and even though my hair is very thick. I feel that because I get highlights a lot and it gets damaged through everyday styling and heating.. It was starting to feel really brittle and VERY tangled. Every time I washed my hair brushing it would be so painful… I would almost end up in tears because it was so knotted. So I was introduced to this product by Ben at HOB SALON in Hale Village and he gave me this product to try at home, along with going in for regular ‘OLAPLEX in-salon treatments’ and doing my weekly treatment at home, my hair is feeling so much healthier. It is now completely tangle free and I feel like my hair is so much stronger and also looks a lot healthier.

5* for this product

RRP £32 NOW £19.99 at JUSTMYLOOK or purchase from HOB SALON Hale

SILVER/PURPLE SHAMPOO

I have been on a mission to get my hair just how I like it this month and I felt that my hair was a very warm tone of blonde.. almost a little gingery… which I hated! So I was doing some research on how to get rid of those warm tones and try to get it a little more ashy… I also have a friend who has recommended using a silver shampoo, so whilst at the hairdressers I asked which one to go for and luckily for me System Professional were able to give me a bottle of their Silver Shampoo… Now I warn you all, this shampoo is PURPLE and I mean bright purple!!!! I was a little bit scared to use it for the first time.

HOW I APPLIED IT:

  • I jumped in the shower and wet my hair through.
  • I used a 50p size blob and massaged it into my hair (make sure you rub it in all the way to the ends of your hair.)
  • I left it on my hair whilst I showered, washed my face etc.
  • Then I rinsed it off, squeezed out excess water and applied a good conditioner.
  • Left that on whilst I shaved my legs and then I rinsed it off.

My hair instantly looked a lot cleaner, whiter and fresher. I highly recommend using the System Professional Silver shampoo. Not only does the product do exactly what it says on the bottle.. you also get a huge bottle and it is amazing value for money.

Systems Professionals You can purchase this product online or again at HOB SALONS

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Now finally this has to be my FAVOURITE product this month… it’s my new Olympus Pen e-pl7.. I was debating for a long time on which camera to go for and had heard some amazing reviews on this camera. I wanted this camera so that I could start vlogging and I think I made the right decision. From its stylish outer case to its flip down selfie screen, It has to be up there with some of the best cameras. And at only £399 It is definitely an investment for any other keen bloggers/vloggers. It has wifi so that you can quickly upload any photos and also a wide range of onscreen filters and editing tools. I think I have officially found my new best friend.

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I purchased mine from Jessops for £399 and if you go onto the Olympus website they also have some amazing accessories to go with it. such as stylish bags and leather straps. I think they will have to be my next treat.

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The SpinFactory in Wilmslow and Spinningfields.

Hi everyone.. I thought I would give you all an update on my classes so far at the Spin Factory. I am always up for trying something new especially when it comes to exercise, I like to mix up my exercise regime and also try out a new class each month… whether its a new class at the gym or at a different location. One of my New Year’s resolutions was to try and push myself out of my comfort zone at least once a week so I thought that going to a brand new environment for me and trying classes I have never done before would be a great place to start.

I have been to the Wilmslow Prospin venue a few times now and I am growing to really love it. everyone seems so friendly and the classes are really tough but the teachers are amazing at guiding you through the class if you have never been before and also making sure that you go at your own pace.. giving you different option and trying out the different options on your bike so that its a great workout for YOU! I love the fact that its not just SPIN classes at the Spin Factory.. the yoga classes and circuit classes are also a great workout and it means you can stay and do a few classes so that you get an amazing total body workout.

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I was in Manchester last week visiting some of my clients and also having a few meetings, so because I knew I was going into Manchester and I knew I would be having a break between meetings I checked the app to see what classes were on that day. Luckily Hailey was running a few classes around lunch time so I was able to do a quick spin class, followed by a 30 minute power flow yoga class. It was brilliant because normally when I’m in Manchester and have a gap I would of gone shopping and spent too much money haha! You can get changed after the class in the changing rooms and this then mean’t that I didn’t have to go home after a long day and do a workout…. because I’d already done it 🙂

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Feeling fab after visiting the Spin Factory MCR

Before I forget to mention to you all… when I booked my classes at Spin Factory MCR on their app (which is all on the same app as the Wilmslow app) once I had booked in for the classes it then told me that the classes were now fully booked… and I made sure that I booked 2 days before the class. So if you’re planning to go I would definitely recommend making your booking as soon as possible to avoid disappointment.

So far I am feeling much stronger since I started and also feeling much more energetic. I can’t wait to see my results after 1 months of being a Spin Factory member.

Going to the salon whilst pregnant..

You will probably no by now that I love having my hair done by one of my clients at Umberto Giannini in Harvey Nichols, Manchester. From just popping in for a braid to getting the whole works done…. So when I became pregnant I thought it was going to be tricky having my colour done like I used to as you hear so many stories about chemicals harming the baby and having awful skin reactions. So I thought what better way than to chat with the professional him self Ben (Manager of Umberto Giannini) and find out all the top tips about looking after your hair during and after your pregnancy.

Can I get my hair coloured whilst pregnant? 

Once you are out of the first trimester (12 weeks) you can get your hair coloured as normal. You MUST tell your hairdresser though as they need to take into consideration that because of your hormones the colour may not take as well as it normally would, meaning that the colour may need a little longer.

Could I go for a dramatic colour change whilst pregnant?

We advise all of our clients to stick with a similar colour to what they already have. As going a different shade could prove difficult in reaching your desired colour when your hair doesn’t take as well as it would normally.

Could having my hair coloured cause harm to the baby?

No, as long as you are out of the first trimester there can be no harm done to your growing baby. With new technologies in hair colorants it is always safe to use.

Why is my hair growing so much now I’m pregnant?

Because your hormones are racing around your body and also if you are taking a pregnancy vitamin along with a healthy pregnancy diet this can all contribute to faster growing hair.

Why does my hair get tangled so easily now I’m pregnant?

Knotted hair is a common symptom for mums-to-be as your body is concentrating on making sure your baby is developing nicely… So things like dry skin and tangled hair are only temporary until the baby arrives.

Once the baby does arrive do I need to do anything differently with my hair? (I have heard about peoples hair falling out)

I recommend to all my clients that they should take a basic hair and nail vitamin once their baby arrives, but make sure you go to your GP and make sure that this is the best thing for YOU and that the vitamin is safe to use if you are breast feeding.

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Ben and Ellie on shoot.

So having a relaxing time at the salon doesn’t need to be a thing of the past now that you’re pregnant.

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If you would like to make an appointment at Umberto Giannini for all appointments and consultations you can either download the Umberto Giannini app or call the salon on 0161 828 8840. Cut and finish start from only £37.

RED DOOR MANCHESTER

Red Door Manchester launched back in April after undergoing a massive £350,000 refit… and WOW when we visited this underground cocktail bar in the centre of Manchester last week we did not expect to see this cool ‘New York Chic’ bar….

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Leaving Manchester Deansgate and walking into this New York style venue (by Living Ventures), before walking underground the amazing writing in lights really makes you want to stop and take a picture and gives you a feeling of entering a really ‘cool’ bar.

We were invited along to try out all their top cocktails on this occasion and we were certainly looked after by all of their staff. As I can’t drink alcohol myself (only mocktails because I’m pregnant) I thought it would be a good idea to take along a couple of friends who would be able to try all the cocktails out. From cocktails with caramel in that are set on fire, to tangy sugary grapefruit cocktails – They are obviously way above the rest when it comes to cocktails in Manchester and Cheshire.

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Mrs Jones
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Caramelised Rum Punch

The making of ‘Caramelised Rum Punch’

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South Beach Sours and something fruity for me.

As well as all of these cool cocktails Red Door also smashes the older more traditional cocktails such as the Porn Star Martini or Pina Colada. And their cocktail menu is pages long so if you are unsure of which cocktail you will like then you have plenty of choice at RED DOOR.

We found that Manchester was really lacking a cool place to go in Manchester that wasn’t a restaurant where you have to go out to eat or on the other end you have the night clubs in Manchester where you can’t hear your friends talk or can’t find somewhere to sit. RED DOOR is purely just for drinks and surrounding the bar are american style booths where you can sit with your friends, you can have a good conversation with your friends without having to shout over the music.

The perfect place to hang out with friends or start a big night out here and see where the night takes you. A popular place for hen parties also as they are renowned for their HUGE sharing cocktails.

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Check out their cocktail menu and opening times online at reddoor.uk.com

Thanks for reading xoxo

A little bit of lunch…

OK.. so we are officially obsessed with Australasia in Manchester.

They seem to do EVERYTHING from evening meals, high tea and even light lunches.

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After an afternoon of shopping last week we went along for a bite to eat (there was even so much choice for my pregnant self.) My favourite dish was the Vegetable Tempura – which is fried vegetables in the picture above, I could of had 2 of these dishes!!

We love how at Australasia you can either sit downstairs in their beautiful restaurant or you can relax upstairs in their Grand Pacific terrace, we can’t decide where we prefer to sit… But on this particularly raining day in Manchester we just wanted to be cosy inside.

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Red Fish Curry and Jasmine Rice + Pork Dumplings
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Stir fried mussels with chilli, sweet basil and peanuts

These are a selection of the dishes we shared… the fish curry was absolutely so delicious.

I couldn’t eat the mussels but wish I was allowed to eat them because they looked so good… My boyfriend was able to polish off the entire dish all to himself.

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Lychee and Ginger Panna Cotta + Pineapple Downunder cake with cherry and coconut

We love how fresh all the food is at Australasia, it all tastes so clean and healthy…. Even the deserts!!!!

Asian High Tea at Grand Pacific – Australasia

We were invited along to Australasia’s Grand Pacific restaurant for Asian High Tea this week. After previously visiting Australasia we knew we were not going to be disappointed.

Their beautiful terrace is the perfect place to go to catch up with your friends or celebrate a special occasion. Even if it’s raining in Manchester you feel like you could be somewhere beautiful, with their palm trees and heated lamps.

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Once we were seated at our table the ‘Asian High Tea’ experience was explained to us by one of their staff, she explained to us that the High Tea comes in 2 waves… Wave 1 includes a three tier sushi and salad selection, served with a complementing glass of The Spee’ Wah Australian ‘champagne’ or you can choose a mocktail from their menu…. Followed by wave 2 which includes three tiers of sweet indulgence, served with your choice of loose leaf or flowering tea (or you can have another glass of Champagne or mocktail.

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Wave 1 included a mixture of fish sushi, vegetable sushi and salads. We were also asked if we had any dietary requirements so if you don’t like meat or have any allergies then this wave can be altered just for you!

Wave 2 included so many delicious mini deserts. My favourite was the chocolate torte, followed by the creme brûlée and then the carrot cake. There is definitely a desert for everyone.

We enjoyed Champaign and a delicious Mango and Coconut mocktail drink with each wave.

At only £25 pp this experience is worth every penny. From it’s beautiful restaurant to beautiful food, I will be recommending this ‘Asian High Tea’ to everyone!

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To BOOK your experience visit Australasia

Tony & Dog – Dog Groomers Cheshire

Tony & Dog has arrived in Cheshire and we are all very excited! Do you have dogs or know someone who does? Spread the word and everyone receives 10% off your first visit to Tony & Dog T&C’s apply. They opened on 8th July and since opening they have been so busy… We are not surprised.. Tony has worked with some of the best doggie brands in and around Manchester/Cheshire and has now decided to set up his own salon with his lovely wife Malu. With years of experience and even grooming many celebrity doggie friends we can only admire his talents.

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ABOUT TONY & DOG

“Tony & Dog is an enthusiastic company that specialises in professional dog grooming. We are based in Sale, Manchester. It is a family business which provides a personalised service to clients, adapting to individual needs whilst always maintaining a high quality dog grooming service.

Tony & Dog is a business that is always at the forefront of the latest styles and techniques, dedicating ourselves to continuous training and professional development. We also support charitable causes in our community. Tony & Dog takes pleasure in helping associations dedicated to the permanent rehoming of abandoned dogs.”

Tony’s Furry Friends

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We think its safe to say Tony has a big heart for anything with 4 legs and a tail. Fully insured and qualified in all of the best grooming techniques this has got to be the No1 spot to take your doggy for some serious pampering.

We would like to welcome Tony & Dog to Cheshire with open arms and to treat you all if you show this post at TONY & DOG before 15th September 2016 you will receive 10% off your first visit.

Contact details: 

Instagram: TonyandDog

Facebook: Tony and Dog

Twitter: @TonyandDog

Contact Number: 0161 2223434

Address: 162 Washway Road, Sale
Cheshire M33 6RH
United Kingdom

Website: http://www.tonyanddog.co.uk